Haha I finally bear to delete and block him in my msn contact.. cos i think i really want to start a brand new life.. a life that will only have tears of joy.. no more tears of sorrow.. haha..  and from now on, qiuyun will have to tell herself that she will no longer msg him, maybe only during his birthday. cos he wished me last yr but i didnt.. and his birthday just a day earlier than mine.. but other than that i will jiayou because i am a step nearer to my happiness.. haha...