last fri, i was chatting with dear and jess in msn when suddenly when i was about to log off around 12am, someone pop me... when i opened my eyes to see clearly who it was, i was shocked.. it was eric.. i already deleted him in msn so i couldnt see him online but i unblock him that time.. i always thought that he wont come and msg me again... in the end i got a scolding from jess.. he told me that he is glad to see that i am happy now and that i have found someone else. he kept saying sorry to me.. he made a remark and say that dear looks like a great guy and  that he will do better than him.. he kept saying that he is very ashamed to talk to me.. i asked him why did he want to leave me and he kept saying he has his reason for doing that... we didnt talk for long but i cried once again.. i thought my tears would not flow so easily again.. he says that if we have fate, we would meet again.. i copied the messages for jess to see, in the end accidentally copied into dear's window, think i must have hurt him.. when we went out that sat, i was stoning again and i knew that he is very sad.. haiz..

Just when I thought I can no longer like anyone else, he has slowly crept into my heart.. maybe i am really slowly letting go of the past.. i just want to start a refreshed life.. whenever i am with him, i feel very secured and he always make me laugh.. though we are closer recently, but i really want to make sure that i am not falling into another endless trap.. because i really dun have so many 6 years of youth to waste... just let nature take its course.. what will come will come.. so there is no point worrying so much either.. what is more important is to live every day happily, like there is no tomorrow.  in this way, then we won't be wasting our life..

my advice to my friend is that if you really think that he is not the one for you and you don't see a future with him, dun bother to waste any more of your time because ultimately the relationship still doesn't work out and you will feel even more hurt..

³¤Í´²»Èç¶ÌÍ´... better to end the pain now..

happiness is just within our reach, as long as we hold hopes for tomorrow, everything will come true as desired..

I dun feel good recently.. not sure whether is it cos of work, friends or other things... probably is a combination of all things.. in super bad mood recently.. just dun feel like doing anything...

cried on the way to work 2 weeks earlier.. couldn't manage to control my tears.. my heart hurts.. i really feel that my parents nv care about my feelings.. haiz..

far too tired.. the road seems so long... i need a rest before i can cont'd with this long journey...

met up with jess and cheryl and we went jurong point cos the shopping centre has been expanded and I havent been there for quite some time. haha they keep saying they hungry and tempt me with all the food.. haha in the end we all went new york new york and all of us ate pasta.. v nice.. haha and we ate cotton candy floss.. but only me and cheryl ate cos jess say the candy too sticky.. then she told us after we ask the waitress to send to us. in the end our hands so sticky and we didnt even finish it.. haha.. after that went shopping but me and jess was so tired and sleepy by that time.. so after that we went cheryl's house to slack.. haha her maltese dog is so cute.. (",) but i didnt dare to hug it in my hands.. haha..

Haha I finally bear to delete and block him in my msn contact.. cos i think i really want to start a brand new life.. a life that will only have tears of joy.. no more tears of sorrow.. haha..  and from now on, qiuyun will have to tell herself that she will no longer msg him, maybe only during his birthday. cos he wished me last yr but i didnt.. and his birthday just a day earlier than mine.. but other than that i will jiayou because i am a step nearer to my happiness.. haha...